Pilachi_Sketch [ BLOG ]

Now I have travelled the full gamut; and have chosen at this juncture, to return to my sketchbooks and to art. I have tried to be a public person to keep my soul from fighting or hiding; now… I see that it is time to be guided by and own a personal space in the quest for truth.

In moments of impetuosity, I have revealed to much; in moments of anger I have said too much; in moments of confusion, I have projected so much; and now in this moment… I know my purpose.

That purpose is to know just enough to do what needs to be done when the appropriate time comes.

All of these dreams and dreams of dreaming… yesterday, I understood my confusion… today I understand why i should no longer be afraid. I learn what I need to know, when I need to know it, so that I can trust myself to move with faith rather than fear. In trying to make sense of everything… this internal “need to know” that I have often blamed others for… keeps me from my own inner peace and from my own faith.

The dreams that I have questioned, have all come to pass. Every element of every single one that I have held to for oh so long… and now, I see that what I needed to understand was essentially how to relax and how to trust, that I would be guided to the things that I need to know at the precise moment that I would need to know that thing.

That is it. The sum total of the message and the moral.

The dream last year… wherein I professed with glee that I found the elements of the dream… well… the elements of that dream only helped me to find a route that otherwise I would not have known about… until I needed it yesterday.

So at close to sunset, I found myself at the specific juncture that I found the elements of the dream, with minutes to reach a destination that given the horrendous Accra traffic, was at least four (4) hours away. By travelling on this “off-the beaten path” path, I was able to get to the destination within 6 or so minutes.

I needed to find that path last year, in order to know it this year… at the precise moment that I would need it.

That is all. No more magic nor mystery.

So instead of forcing it… the moral for me is to be guided into truth… with enthusiasm rather than overwhelming zeal. It is also important not to force these proclamations on anyone… just to learn from the experience.

If this is the last thing I write here, it means that I have gone back to writing in my sketchbook.

Goodbye.